Thought for the day

"If women didn't want to be played, they wouldn't be so predictable."

along the lines of,
"If we weren't supposed to eat animals, they wouldn't be made of meat."

Comedy Is Not My Thing

There is a lot to be learned from it, and appreciated, but it's not for me. I know this because I haven't given it any real serious thought. I've learned some things from Seinfeld (see Comedian) and from reading Mamet, etc, but I don't have the drive to really do it. And my particular answer has been staring me squarely in the face for well over 10 years now, because it's something that I love doing, it's who I am, and I still get to interface with thousands of people and "game" them.

It's allowed me to meet people like Wes Craven, enjoy spending time with folks gathered all around the world to Ivy League schools, and other things that I suppose "sound really neat." When I get my ducks back in a row, I have the potential to write off so much money just by travelling it's sick, and I need to focus on that.

I need to stop pretending I like to fuck with cars, because yes I can do it, yes it's fun tuning them, but I really don't want to spend the time doing it. Yes I can turbo your mom's geo metro with a full standalone, but no I really dont feel like it. And the perks here? I plan on moving to Cali soon, meaning C.A.R.B. requirements and DONT TOUCH IT laws. I might as well sell off all the junk I have, and get something nice that has at least a couple hundred ponies under the hood.

I still have my hotties (fat $$$ clients) and my ugly girls that I have to befriend, but still not do business with. I don't have to piss my now monogomous girlfriend off anymore either because I'm still doing sex-game with every other girl I meet.

So what I can do is at least explain here what I'm doing now and what helped me back in the day. Little cute cosmetic tips, all of the other stuff I focused so hard on, and man- you all KNOW how PickUp101 talks about the debriefing. It is so damn important because it's funny how nothing you focus on, is what seems to really get the girl.

Replacing The Game

Why is it so hard for me to replace the game, as it was taught to me? Because it's the only thing this ex-introvert has that gave him tons of social proof, the very first social high, absolute crack, pure addictive crack, on an emotional and physical level. Social acceptance is a grand thing.

It's no secret that a lot of the game is compared to stand up comedians, especially along the lines of the mystery method with canned routines. I've wanted to dabble with stand up for awhile now. Yet Ive only gone as far to be a part of local comedy nights, even judging, but never letting the balls out of the pants and getting my ass up there.

So I'll review my active year in the game, since I've already spent more than enough time just watching comedy central (since 1998), enjoying a good laugh, and reading up on some of the nitty gritty. Now it's time to take some canned jokes and try them out on a stand up night, and prepare a routine, and a set. And then venture on to my own material. When something sucks, alter it, and when something's good, maybe tweak it or leave it be, time and audiences will tell.

Are you a seminar junkie?

In the tens of thousands of thoughts that cross my mind throughout the morning, today I was on the verge of calling myself a seminar junkie. I love watching the material that's out there for us, in this community. And I've felt a decline in "who I am" as a result of not paying attention to what's been happening lately. But to answer the question, no I am not a seminar junkie and here's why!

I believe the term is used for people who never venture to the application phase, or beyond. I most definitely surpassed that point this year, but I'm still new to everything, and the higher lessons taught by our mentors have not fully bloomed inside of me. I don't think there ever is an ending point either, life is always changing, evolving, and we must always learn.

Also, when you live where I do- the material is the closest thing there is to a bonded community feeling. Watching GOOD video material for awhile has been very helpful in getting my state where it needs to be, PERIOD. And fake it til you make it has been absolutely MONUMENTAL in helping me at work as well.

I am coming back into the community to learn, to apply things outside of a sexual state. Probably makes me a huge tease to women but I don't care, I love my girl with all my heart but I feel myself ignoring women on purpose at this point, again, and that is dangerous because I am not addressing whatever problem it is I have where I can't stop at being just friends. Most importantly I'm glad to have caught this early on.

VaDrum Fucking Rocks

Check this guy out, and all related videos. My personal idol, let alone that set he's on. Absolutely wonderful!

http://ca.youtube.com/watch?v=kW0hHJFrhrA&feature=related

Another Brick In The Wall

Strong framing, thank you gentlemen of the community.

Show her love always, thank you David Deida.

Restructure thinking to place bad thoughts in the past, and bring happiness to future cognizance, thank you Bandler / NLP / Business Pursuasion.

Knowing that it's really okay to realize I have a problem with alcohol and never touch the shit again because I don't trust myself with it any longer, thank you BestFriend's Dad.

I'm still keeping my books for my future son to read, but I think I'm on my exit from the active community at this point. God bless you all.

Student RBF Revisited

I've already learned to screen people I choose to mentor, in a way that is close to screening the girls I want to "go after." I didn't screen this guy at all, and I'll still be his friend but I'm not helping him anymore, not the way I intended to. Sorry bro!

Just wanted to update you guys in case you were interested to see what happened with this one. He ended up totally freaking the girl out by annihilating her phone with text messages before I even got to him, so we were already in damage control. And then she called me basically freaking out because he threatened her in some sort of way.

Again, alcohol is starting to be something I dislike because I'm not quite sure many people can really handle it the right way. Like, I can physically feel it going down differently when I'm at my limit. And when I pass that limit and tell myself to shut up, problems arise (blacking out, fights, arguments), and keep in mind I'm scrawny so I'm really trying to kill myself being this way up against some large folks. *shudder*

The Wall

I've come up on a serious inner game issue. I hadnt noticed this as "sticking point" in my relationships until yesterday. I have anger issues. I don't know how to deal with them.

I've ruined probably the best relationship I've ever had because of too much drinking and anger, and yes words are the absolute most painful weapons ever, I promise you. I would never lay my hands on a woman in a threatening manner, or as to even hint at cause harm- however that may actually hurt less than some of the things I've said recently. And it has caused a huge tremendous rift in my utopia.

As a result I've also immediately decided to not drink, ever again. I tried to slow it down, cut it back, but I went right back at it worse than before. And now I am stating here and now that I have a problem drinking responsibly, and I have problems with anger, and it needs to end NOW before something worse happens. I wish I realized this with one of the other previous girls, but the fact is this is (was? :( ) only my second serious serious relationship.

And I'm at the point now where I'm looking for someplace new to live, even considering switching up cities, each choice bringing with it some undeniable pain that I will have to face.

And I am up against the wall. I still haven't processed my divorce and it's starting to become a festering wound in my life that needs to go. I've got to focus on me again. At least my going out budget has taken a serious plummet, so I won't be wasting money on that stuff ever again.

And to my friends who brew their own beer and really want me to try some, I'm sorry. But you might as well think I've lost my mind and joined a cult or a church or something. But this is me, as a man, as a controller of my own destiny realizing now that I allow alcohol to ruin my relationships, my life, and the lives of others, and I'm done with it. It is internalized, no offense, and if you truly are my friends you will support me and let it at that (and I know you will).

I will know what is to come of my life very shortly. I will either disappear from the scene entirely, and enjoy my monogamous relationship forever, or come back with must better inner game, and a much better game plan. The little guy downstairs is already restless.

For now,
Beek

Student RBF

Well unfortunately it's worse than I thought. I knew he texted this girl he liked a few too many times in a row (okay, 5 is a lot with no response). I tried to explain to him that she's busy, has a day job where she isn't chained to her phone, and that when she gets a chance she will return his text.

So I assumed I was in some sort of damage control already. Well I was right, but I definitely underestimated it all :) I'm still trying to convey generally accepted community concepts to this guy, and he loves everything. But I know his chances with this girl are pretty much totally yeah absolutely totally annihilated. Especially when I took her out later in the week and she was telling me all about creepy guy. Sorry dude!

He's already LJBF after only meeting her one day and getting the number. We'll see what I can do, I had such high initial hopes for him too.

The Way of the Superior Man - David Deida

Just finished reading this book. The one thing I regret is not reading with my notepad close by, to write down everything that I want to remember, everything that I am aligned with, everything that brought forth enlightenment and realization.

Some brief points that I want to remind myself about here, from the table of contents:
Stop hoping for a completion of anything in life.
Never change your mind just to please a woman.
Enjoy your friends' criticism
Be willing to change everything in your life
Stop hoping for your woman to get easier

Praise her
Tolerating her leads to resenting her
Dont analyze your woman
Stay with her intensity- to a point
Don't force the feminine to make decisions

Choose a woman who chooses you
What she wants is not what she says (p108- highly recommended first read)
She doesnt really want to be number one
Your excellent track record is meaningless to her (this is excellent for day to day life / business as well)

You are always searching for freedom
She wants the "killer" in you

I'm going to skim through this book again right after hitting post, just a quick glance through every page, before moving on to our next book.

mPUA

Men find women and declare themselves "out of the game." I've read about it on the forums, but have never witnessed it first hand.

The girl I am with now, absolutely perfect, and I see myself being totally committed to her- purely us, absolutely beautiful. Am I worried about losing myself? About losing the massive social circles I have developed? Not exactly. Her and I go out all the time together, and what I used to do as part of being me, you know- a community guy, I do with her every time we're out. We are one person now, and it is absolutely beautiful and amazing.

Thus, making it official, that I am going to be training others now. Not in the full community style, but in my own way. I am meeting with one of my friends tonight to see what I am working with, what his goals in life are, what he is most afraid of, etc. He's not very bad really, because we met out in one of the largest nite clubs around here and I've seen him with a few ladies that he really likes. But I want to help him kill the boy, become a warrior king, and take life by the reigns and really move forward. Plus the way he keeps talking about this one girl in particular, I feel a real need to give him some of what I've learned from the community.

So this blog will most likely turn into a trial by fire review of me working with others. Anyone who has taught anything knows that students are the best teachers, and you learn SO MUCH MORE. All of there questions are directed to YOU, and YOU must know the answer. The first time I experienced this, my master turned to me to train the children's Tae Kwon Do classes. Those kids taught me so much, and helped me really learn the technique, it's really an awesome experience.

And so I now move forward, to attain mPUA status by my own definition.

Also working with another friend of mine who is deep in the community. But that will help me as well.

This was a great year for self exploration, growing, and learning. Next year will that, and so much more- helping others.

Signing off for now,
B

Milestone / Update

A few weeks ago, much like many other aspiring master pickup artists, I reached another milestone- without any rhyme or reason other than mommy was right- practice does make perfect. There was the preparty with the college girls, but something even more amazing happened at the club I'm always at.

Leader of men? Guys were buying me drinks, hell one guy paid my entire tab for the night. And it was SO ON with every single lady there. In fact, it got a little out of hand (hey I'm still new to this) and even though I qualify for non-jealous women, I almost lost my absolute most favorite girl due to jealousy.

Can I explain it? No.

Finally started watching the rest of the VH1 show and it sort of opens my eyes to things I've been doing, like peacocking. I never considered it wearing the clothes that everyone else isnt really wearing. For example, I have these really bitchin pants I got at Express that work really well with the blacklight setup at this place. They are very very very noticable with the pattern, even though they are mostly black. But that, plus the shiny necklaces and the ring here and there. So I guess I have been peacocking, the right way, not wearing all this psycho stuff. Some people just don't get Mystery or take things too literal *shrug*

The seduction chronicles post from the other day was pretty good as well. It makes me classify myself as a free-flowing pickup artist. However contrary to what they say, I still find myself totally addicted and appreciative of The Mystery Method in all of it's rigidity. And I take that rigidity and place it as a container around what I develop. I do enjoy using tried and true "routines", but I have so many that I can just come up with now, that I rarely do get to use one again unless my head screams at me that it is the perfect opportunity to use it.

And back to my girl, it's pretty much just her and me now. And we're about to go public with it. Am I sad? Not really. This gives me the opportunity to go back and re-read everything I have read so far and post my views on it here. It also gives me time to get through some books that I've still been meaning to read, and really focus on my business and The Warrior King Society. I've pretty much given that thing a back seat lately due to life restructuring. I'm hoping to be able to transform some of the AFCs around here that want help. I think I can do a lot for them, even though I haven't been officially trained by the masters and powers that be.

I'm still looking to replace my day job, but at the same time I'm redoing things to where if I have to, I can get by with my side business and then grow it beyond my wildest dreams to the point where I'm kicking myself hard for not doing it sooner.

That's all for now, take care guys and have a great week!

Game game

Combination of day game, night game, leader of men.

I have a collection of openers I use, about my life, that always lead to some sort of event during the week. Think of the goal as seeding, immediate or couple hour/day time bridging.

I have used these dialogues during the day/pre-going out at night to get guys and girls to go to certain events, like a promoter would do (am i really a promoter now? lol), and they usually immediately call their friends to take them out, and bring some more friends etc. The ones that are disinterested, no big deal at all.

So when I show up to the venue, I am already having folks say hi, come up to me, I have people to say hi to that I don't already know. There are a lot of people that I do know there, so this really adds to the number of people others see me with.

On top of that, I usually have like 2 or 3 of my "friends" :D there that come up and sit with me. Damn cockblocks, I love them though :)

I hope the gist of this post isnt lost in it's excessive ambiguity. I had to get the concept blogged before much longer.

The Warrior King Society

Just wanted to mention that since I've joined The Warrior King Society, my weight has remained the same, but I've lost 10% body fat. I'm still not at the 8% I'd like, but I'm pretty close. It has also helped me realize that I've been spending a lot of time at the gym unnecessarily.

Now I'm down to, dare I say, 30 minutes MAX. And I'm about to split things up between days for better recovery time between muscle failure / cardio. Less time, but yes, a dramatic improvement that I am happy with.

Plus, I've never felt like more of a man because of the health information I've started to apply in my life, and it only gets better every day.

If you want to have this type of success in your life, please check out the link I have here on the blog for the warrior king society. Yes it is a referral link, and I'd like to thank you for helping me out by signing up using it should you decide to. Even if you don't, you owe it to yourself to seriously consider signing up.

Day Game

If I start working nights, I'm going to shift my focus to day game. But the way I've been working, I don't think it will be an issue.. just something I'm thinking about.

Friday

...night was spectacular. I've seen friends I haven't seen since the beginning of summer, because of them working horrendous summer schedules and all. Hopped around a few venues with no intent to really stay at them, and it was on the entire time. If I could keep *that* frame all the time, I think I would have greater success.

I'm still having a problem meeting new people, now that I have a lot of people I consider my friends here. I think I'm buying into things that contribute to my false sense of security again, and I need to cut it out. I need to be able to just have fun with new people every place I go. That sense of deep rapport and excitement.

I've started using some of the things I read about in the blogs, about sexual framing in the venue "fucking the shit out of them on the table in front of everyone" and not really denying it. Because hell, Nancy Friday is my new personal idol. I'm going to be creating my own stories based on her style every time I'm out and it's on!

This week, I feel myself doing more studying and reading. These decisions are usually tight budget related, I've had to make a lot of unexpected purchases this month that totals over 600$ which is a lot for me. Luckily, the way I'm rearranging my life now, these exact things can never come up again.

Sarging For Work

I'm planning to FTC the doorman at a nite club tonight.

"Hey real quick, if I was looking to work here, who would I talk to?"

A. We're not hiring.
Well, if you were hiring, who would I talk to?

B. X

Ah great, when is the best time to talk to X?

Important points are if the work is year round or only seasonal because I'm looking to replace my day job- even if that means I switch to working nights. Also, while I do not have experience working the environment, I have been to quite a few nite clubs in larger cities, and can be trained how they want me without me carrying "great ideas" from last employers.

I will be dressed okay, I did spend some time cleaning up the shoes and picking out what to wear.

Wish me luck guys!

Thursday

Sometimes I get stuck in my head, I'm in a perfect situation, and I destroy myself by focusing on lies, how I don't have game, how I'm fucking up the interaction. I didn't really want to take anyone home that night, but there were these 2 women who were perfect. What was I scared of? Everything was there, I could have jumped into comfort so quickly. The way she wouldnt let go of my hand and squeezed the shit out of it as I left. I've got to figure this one out.. she was amazing though.. damnit. Maybe I'm still looking to build the social circle, and not wanting to deal with SNL/Logistics/getting attached. Maybe that's just an excuse... hmms

restrospect

I was reading through my written journal the other day. Some of the women I tagged as HB, I wouldn't even consider gaming. Fair or not, they just aren't hot enough to me anymore. In fact, I almost slapped myself and started giving myself a hard time..

Now, I've only been actively social for a few months, but the rate at which I am readjusting my sights is impressive, at least to me (and that's all that really matters anyway). So cheers to me, and big cheers to inner game because I didn't go out Friday and I don't give a shit. I had to be at work early this morning and sleep wins.

I had a great night watching some James Bond movies and chillin with some animals I'm watching for a girl friend of mine. CJ has updated his core pua bookshelf, some books are missing (but not from my library ;)) and there are some additions. His current list determines what I'm reading next.

Trying to be Fidelio

(names have been changed :))

girls kick ass
i met this little hottie on friday
and somehow i always manage to make out with them
well andrea was thinking i might leave her at the club, and i was the one who gave her a ride
so she sent our friend sara over to make out with me, you know interrupt me and jennifer
well yeah, then sara went back and andrea came over and did the same fucking thing
i think jennifer thought i planned it because then she said "youre trying too hard"
and i told her "no no, this is me trying too hard" and i turned around and never talked to her again :D
so im eating sushi with my friend james from upstate yesterday and he says
"yeah i brought my friend down and i look over and this mother fucker (pointing to me) is making out with her lol"
good times :)
so i know she'll be back, and maybe next time she'll keep her mouth shut :)