Friday

...night was spectacular. I've seen friends I haven't seen since the beginning of summer, because of them working horrendous summer schedules and all. Hopped around a few venues with no intent to really stay at them, and it was on the entire time. If I could keep *that* frame all the time, I think I would have greater success.

I'm still having a problem meeting new people, now that I have a lot of people I consider my friends here. I think I'm buying into things that contribute to my false sense of security again, and I need to cut it out. I need to be able to just have fun with new people every place I go. That sense of deep rapport and excitement.

I've started using some of the things I read about in the blogs, about sexual framing in the venue "fucking the shit out of them on the table in front of everyone" and not really denying it. Because hell, Nancy Friday is my new personal idol. I'm going to be creating my own stories based on her style every time I'm out and it's on!

This week, I feel myself doing more studying and reading. These decisions are usually tight budget related, I've had to make a lot of unexpected purchases this month that totals over 600$ which is a lot for me. Luckily, the way I'm rearranging my life now, these exact things can never come up again.