Update

Have not been going out. When I do, I spend all the money I have on drinks for myself and my friends. If I brought out 40$, that would be enough. But I bring out 300$ and don't stop at 40, I stop when there's nothing left to pull from my pockets. Totally have cut back the last 3 weeks or so. I think I'll go out for a little bit tonight, and not try to trick myself, but will just limit myself as a professional and learn to have fun in other ways.

The sister is asking about me still.. *sigh*

Also been slacking at the gym a little, mostly due to other personal matters that have been taking up my time, and they are of a nature that does not allow me to do anything BUT deal with them right then and there. I've missed 2 gym days this week, but based on the every-other-day mentality, I've only missed one after today. I'm still working hard towards my goals, and have lost some of my weight already (good news). I promise it's all been worthless fat, and I can actually start to see where my stomach should be.

Life is still good, have been focusing on sales because a lot of it deals with rapport, and how to get there quickly. Being in the game this long, it's nice to actually be able to clearly see the separations of what is what. Probably could have learned this in 30 minutes of a bootcamp though. But it's being internalized slowly.

Tonight will be about conversation with friends, not screaming at the music drunk. Writing that sentence actually makes me feel good too. Now if I could stay away from the sugar drinks. I suppose beer will be the most healthy, if not water.