HB Myspace has turned tonight, trying to push my limits, or at least trying to see if she's broken me into being her bitch. Unfortunately, I exist to master the game and ultimately to help other people succeed in social dynamics and being a real person. So if this is the part where I learn to lose "the perfect girl" then so be it. While I was in this for myself in the beginning, I feel part of something greater, and will sacrifice the one for the good of the many this time.
She's being short, it seems, because I won't drop everything on a dime to come get her. I told her it'd be at least a few weeks and all I got was "yeah, ok." I told myself earlier I was going to do a wonderful fidelio freezeout, yet when I did, she started to warm up again before I txt her back- at which point she got cold.
So, at this point I am daring myself to not txt her until tomorrow evening. Perhaps that is too long? I don't know, but now is the time to learn- and if something like this can tear her love from me away, then it was never really there, and it's a good thing that I stopped this before I took myself through another journey in life involving another person's soul. So, until I get off work tomorrow, I am cut off from her, that's all there is to that. She did say she was quitting her job tomorrow, but that I do not understand because I am not coming to get her tomorrow, and she does need money. *shrug*
I want to txt her lines from some music I know we're both into, but that's totally gay ass AFC and I'm glad I recognized it before it was too late. I have to grab my new balls here and be a man.
The only downside I forsee, is that she has me on AIM and will probably msg me. I can probably ignore it, or downplay it.
Anyhow, tonight was good. Went to karaoke and had a good time for a few minutes with T, some crazy ass duets going on with Unchain My Heart. Definitely beer required ;)
I'm out for tonight, big day of ... umm ... something, tomorrow.
Nite.
B
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