Another Brick In The Wall

Strong framing, thank you gentlemen of the community.

Show her love always, thank you David Deida.

Restructure thinking to place bad thoughts in the past, and bring happiness to future cognizance, thank you Bandler / NLP / Business Pursuasion.

Knowing that it's really okay to realize I have a problem with alcohol and never touch the shit again because I don't trust myself with it any longer, thank you BestFriend's Dad.

I'm still keeping my books for my future son to read, but I think I'm on my exit from the active community at this point. God bless you all.

Student RBF Revisited

I've already learned to screen people I choose to mentor, in a way that is close to screening the girls I want to "go after." I didn't screen this guy at all, and I'll still be his friend but I'm not helping him anymore, not the way I intended to. Sorry bro!

Just wanted to update you guys in case you were interested to see what happened with this one. He ended up totally freaking the girl out by annihilating her phone with text messages before I even got to him, so we were already in damage control. And then she called me basically freaking out because he threatened her in some sort of way.

Again, alcohol is starting to be something I dislike because I'm not quite sure many people can really handle it the right way. Like, I can physically feel it going down differently when I'm at my limit. And when I pass that limit and tell myself to shut up, problems arise (blacking out, fights, arguments), and keep in mind I'm scrawny so I'm really trying to kill myself being this way up against some large folks. *shudder*

The Wall

I've come up on a serious inner game issue. I hadnt noticed this as "sticking point" in my relationships until yesterday. I have anger issues. I don't know how to deal with them.

I've ruined probably the best relationship I've ever had because of too much drinking and anger, and yes words are the absolute most painful weapons ever, I promise you. I would never lay my hands on a woman in a threatening manner, or as to even hint at cause harm- however that may actually hurt less than some of the things I've said recently. And it has caused a huge tremendous rift in my utopia.

As a result I've also immediately decided to not drink, ever again. I tried to slow it down, cut it back, but I went right back at it worse than before. And now I am stating here and now that I have a problem drinking responsibly, and I have problems with anger, and it needs to end NOW before something worse happens. I wish I realized this with one of the other previous girls, but the fact is this is (was? :( ) only my second serious serious relationship.

And I'm at the point now where I'm looking for someplace new to live, even considering switching up cities, each choice bringing with it some undeniable pain that I will have to face.

And I am up against the wall. I still haven't processed my divorce and it's starting to become a festering wound in my life that needs to go. I've got to focus on me again. At least my going out budget has taken a serious plummet, so I won't be wasting money on that stuff ever again.

And to my friends who brew their own beer and really want me to try some, I'm sorry. But you might as well think I've lost my mind and joined a cult or a church or something. But this is me, as a man, as a controller of my own destiny realizing now that I allow alcohol to ruin my relationships, my life, and the lives of others, and I'm done with it. It is internalized, no offense, and if you truly are my friends you will support me and let it at that (and I know you will).

I will know what is to come of my life very shortly. I will either disappear from the scene entirely, and enjoy my monogamous relationship forever, or come back with must better inner game, and a much better game plan. The little guy downstairs is already restless.

For now,
Beek

Student RBF

Well unfortunately it's worse than I thought. I knew he texted this girl he liked a few too many times in a row (okay, 5 is a lot with no response). I tried to explain to him that she's busy, has a day job where she isn't chained to her phone, and that when she gets a chance she will return his text.

So I assumed I was in some sort of damage control already. Well I was right, but I definitely underestimated it all :) I'm still trying to convey generally accepted community concepts to this guy, and he loves everything. But I know his chances with this girl are pretty much totally yeah absolutely totally annihilated. Especially when I took her out later in the week and she was telling me all about creepy guy. Sorry dude!

He's already LJBF after only meeting her one day and getting the number. We'll see what I can do, I had such high initial hopes for him too.

The Way of the Superior Man - David Deida

Just finished reading this book. The one thing I regret is not reading with my notepad close by, to write down everything that I want to remember, everything that I am aligned with, everything that brought forth enlightenment and realization.

Some brief points that I want to remind myself about here, from the table of contents:
Stop hoping for a completion of anything in life.
Never change your mind just to please a woman.
Enjoy your friends' criticism
Be willing to change everything in your life
Stop hoping for your woman to get easier

Praise her
Tolerating her leads to resenting her
Dont analyze your woman
Stay with her intensity- to a point
Don't force the feminine to make decisions

Choose a woman who chooses you
What she wants is not what she says (p108- highly recommended first read)
She doesnt really want to be number one
Your excellent track record is meaningless to her (this is excellent for day to day life / business as well)

You are always searching for freedom
She wants the "killer" in you

I'm going to skim through this book again right after hitting post, just a quick glance through every page, before moving on to our next book.

mPUA

Men find women and declare themselves "out of the game." I've read about it on the forums, but have never witnessed it first hand.

The girl I am with now, absolutely perfect, and I see myself being totally committed to her- purely us, absolutely beautiful. Am I worried about losing myself? About losing the massive social circles I have developed? Not exactly. Her and I go out all the time together, and what I used to do as part of being me, you know- a community guy, I do with her every time we're out. We are one person now, and it is absolutely beautiful and amazing.

Thus, making it official, that I am going to be training others now. Not in the full community style, but in my own way. I am meeting with one of my friends tonight to see what I am working with, what his goals in life are, what he is most afraid of, etc. He's not very bad really, because we met out in one of the largest nite clubs around here and I've seen him with a few ladies that he really likes. But I want to help him kill the boy, become a warrior king, and take life by the reigns and really move forward. Plus the way he keeps talking about this one girl in particular, I feel a real need to give him some of what I've learned from the community.

So this blog will most likely turn into a trial by fire review of me working with others. Anyone who has taught anything knows that students are the best teachers, and you learn SO MUCH MORE. All of there questions are directed to YOU, and YOU must know the answer. The first time I experienced this, my master turned to me to train the children's Tae Kwon Do classes. Those kids taught me so much, and helped me really learn the technique, it's really an awesome experience.

And so I now move forward, to attain mPUA status by my own definition.

Also working with another friend of mine who is deep in the community. But that will help me as well.

This was a great year for self exploration, growing, and learning. Next year will that, and so much more- helping others.

Signing off for now,
B

Milestone / Update

A few weeks ago, much like many other aspiring master pickup artists, I reached another milestone- without any rhyme or reason other than mommy was right- practice does make perfect. There was the preparty with the college girls, but something even more amazing happened at the club I'm always at.

Leader of men? Guys were buying me drinks, hell one guy paid my entire tab for the night. And it was SO ON with every single lady there. In fact, it got a little out of hand (hey I'm still new to this) and even though I qualify for non-jealous women, I almost lost my absolute most favorite girl due to jealousy.

Can I explain it? No.

Finally started watching the rest of the VH1 show and it sort of opens my eyes to things I've been doing, like peacocking. I never considered it wearing the clothes that everyone else isnt really wearing. For example, I have these really bitchin pants I got at Express that work really well with the blacklight setup at this place. They are very very very noticable with the pattern, even though they are mostly black. But that, plus the shiny necklaces and the ring here and there. So I guess I have been peacocking, the right way, not wearing all this psycho stuff. Some people just don't get Mystery or take things too literal *shrug*

The seduction chronicles post from the other day was pretty good as well. It makes me classify myself as a free-flowing pickup artist. However contrary to what they say, I still find myself totally addicted and appreciative of The Mystery Method in all of it's rigidity. And I take that rigidity and place it as a container around what I develop. I do enjoy using tried and true "routines", but I have so many that I can just come up with now, that I rarely do get to use one again unless my head screams at me that it is the perfect opportunity to use it.

And back to my girl, it's pretty much just her and me now. And we're about to go public with it. Am I sad? Not really. This gives me the opportunity to go back and re-read everything I have read so far and post my views on it here. It also gives me time to get through some books that I've still been meaning to read, and really focus on my business and The Warrior King Society. I've pretty much given that thing a back seat lately due to life restructuring. I'm hoping to be able to transform some of the AFCs around here that want help. I think I can do a lot for them, even though I haven't been officially trained by the masters and powers that be.

I'm still looking to replace my day job, but at the same time I'm redoing things to where if I have to, I can get by with my side business and then grow it beyond my wildest dreams to the point where I'm kicking myself hard for not doing it sooner.

That's all for now, take care guys and have a great week!

Game game

Combination of day game, night game, leader of men.

I have a collection of openers I use, about my life, that always lead to some sort of event during the week. Think of the goal as seeding, immediate or couple hour/day time bridging.

I have used these dialogues during the day/pre-going out at night to get guys and girls to go to certain events, like a promoter would do (am i really a promoter now? lol), and they usually immediately call their friends to take them out, and bring some more friends etc. The ones that are disinterested, no big deal at all.

So when I show up to the venue, I am already having folks say hi, come up to me, I have people to say hi to that I don't already know. There are a lot of people that I do know there, so this really adds to the number of people others see me with.

On top of that, I usually have like 2 or 3 of my "friends" :D there that come up and sit with me. Damn cockblocks, I love them though :)

I hope the gist of this post isnt lost in it's excessive ambiguity. I had to get the concept blogged before much longer.

The Warrior King Society

Just wanted to mention that since I've joined The Warrior King Society, my weight has remained the same, but I've lost 10% body fat. I'm still not at the 8% I'd like, but I'm pretty close. It has also helped me realize that I've been spending a lot of time at the gym unnecessarily.

Now I'm down to, dare I say, 30 minutes MAX. And I'm about to split things up between days for better recovery time between muscle failure / cardio. Less time, but yes, a dramatic improvement that I am happy with.

Plus, I've never felt like more of a man because of the health information I've started to apply in my life, and it only gets better every day.

If you want to have this type of success in your life, please check out the link I have here on the blog for the warrior king society. Yes it is a referral link, and I'd like to thank you for helping me out by signing up using it should you decide to. Even if you don't, you owe it to yourself to seriously consider signing up.

Day Game

If I start working nights, I'm going to shift my focus to day game. But the way I've been working, I don't think it will be an issue.. just something I'm thinking about.

Friday

...night was spectacular. I've seen friends I haven't seen since the beginning of summer, because of them working horrendous summer schedules and all. Hopped around a few venues with no intent to really stay at them, and it was on the entire time. If I could keep *that* frame all the time, I think I would have greater success.

I'm still having a problem meeting new people, now that I have a lot of people I consider my friends here. I think I'm buying into things that contribute to my false sense of security again, and I need to cut it out. I need to be able to just have fun with new people every place I go. That sense of deep rapport and excitement.

I've started using some of the things I read about in the blogs, about sexual framing in the venue "fucking the shit out of them on the table in front of everyone" and not really denying it. Because hell, Nancy Friday is my new personal idol. I'm going to be creating my own stories based on her style every time I'm out and it's on!

This week, I feel myself doing more studying and reading. These decisions are usually tight budget related, I've had to make a lot of unexpected purchases this month that totals over 600$ which is a lot for me. Luckily, the way I'm rearranging my life now, these exact things can never come up again.

Sarging For Work

I'm planning to FTC the doorman at a nite club tonight.

"Hey real quick, if I was looking to work here, who would I talk to?"

A. We're not hiring.
Well, if you were hiring, who would I talk to?

B. X

Ah great, when is the best time to talk to X?

Important points are if the work is year round or only seasonal because I'm looking to replace my day job- even if that means I switch to working nights. Also, while I do not have experience working the environment, I have been to quite a few nite clubs in larger cities, and can be trained how they want me without me carrying "great ideas" from last employers.

I will be dressed okay, I did spend some time cleaning up the shoes and picking out what to wear.

Wish me luck guys!

Thursday

Sometimes I get stuck in my head, I'm in a perfect situation, and I destroy myself by focusing on lies, how I don't have game, how I'm fucking up the interaction. I didn't really want to take anyone home that night, but there were these 2 women who were perfect. What was I scared of? Everything was there, I could have jumped into comfort so quickly. The way she wouldnt let go of my hand and squeezed the shit out of it as I left. I've got to figure this one out.. she was amazing though.. damnit. Maybe I'm still looking to build the social circle, and not wanting to deal with SNL/Logistics/getting attached. Maybe that's just an excuse... hmms

restrospect

I was reading through my written journal the other day. Some of the women I tagged as HB, I wouldn't even consider gaming. Fair or not, they just aren't hot enough to me anymore. In fact, I almost slapped myself and started giving myself a hard time..

Now, I've only been actively social for a few months, but the rate at which I am readjusting my sights is impressive, at least to me (and that's all that really matters anyway). So cheers to me, and big cheers to inner game because I didn't go out Friday and I don't give a shit. I had to be at work early this morning and sleep wins.

I had a great night watching some James Bond movies and chillin with some animals I'm watching for a girl friend of mine. CJ has updated his core pua bookshelf, some books are missing (but not from my library ;)) and there are some additions. His current list determines what I'm reading next.

Trying to be Fidelio

(names have been changed :))

girls kick ass
i met this little hottie on friday
and somehow i always manage to make out with them
well andrea was thinking i might leave her at the club, and i was the one who gave her a ride
so she sent our friend sara over to make out with me, you know interrupt me and jennifer
well yeah, then sara went back and andrea came over and did the same fucking thing
i think jennifer thought i planned it because then she said "youre trying too hard"
and i told her "no no, this is me trying too hard" and i turned around and never talked to her again :D
so im eating sushi with my friend james from upstate yesterday and he says
"yeah i brought my friend down and i look over and this mother fucker (pointing to me) is making out with her lol"
good times :)
so i know she'll be back, and maybe next time she'll keep her mouth shut :)

Last Night

I owed this guy a shot from a few weeks ago when I was so broke, but needed a drink. That's the only money I spent last night, plus tip, less than $10. And the same person that bought me the shot a few weeks ago, bought me 2- and because of not really going out as much, that was more than enough :) It was a good night, so many people were there that I haven't seen in so long. And I started getting this often, and got it a lot last night, "you know everyone here dont you?"

Tonight, same deal. I might buy 1 drink, but we'll see :) I kinda liked not buying stuff because my money doesn't need to end up in my urinary tract.

I don't write LRs, but if I did there would be one here.

Update

Have not been going out. When I do, I spend all the money I have on drinks for myself and my friends. If I brought out 40$, that would be enough. But I bring out 300$ and don't stop at 40, I stop when there's nothing left to pull from my pockets. Totally have cut back the last 3 weeks or so. I think I'll go out for a little bit tonight, and not try to trick myself, but will just limit myself as a professional and learn to have fun in other ways.

The sister is asking about me still.. *sigh*

Also been slacking at the gym a little, mostly due to other personal matters that have been taking up my time, and they are of a nature that does not allow me to do anything BUT deal with them right then and there. I've missed 2 gym days this week, but based on the every-other-day mentality, I've only missed one after today. I'm still working hard towards my goals, and have lost some of my weight already (good news). I promise it's all been worthless fat, and I can actually start to see where my stomach should be.

Life is still good, have been focusing on sales because a lot of it deals with rapport, and how to get there quickly. Being in the game this long, it's nice to actually be able to clearly see the separations of what is what. Probably could have learned this in 30 minutes of a bootcamp though. But it's being internalized slowly.

Tonight will be about conversation with friends, not screaming at the music drunk. Writing that sentence actually makes me feel good too. Now if I could stay away from the sugar drinks. I suppose beer will be the most healthy, if not water.

The Sister and the Cousin

So my friend's cousin is here visiting for a bit, she just turned 21 and you can tell by her body language that she doesn't go out much. A lot of what we do seems to surprise her, but she doesn't object to anything and enjoys it. Still kind of a culture shock to her.

Now his sister is straight up gaming me, but I'm too drunk to remember exactly what went down. But she said "holy shit no one's ever turned me down before" and she did _the backturn_! And I looked at the cousin, because I for some reason when drunk like to explain social dynamics to her, and she's new to this whole going out thing, and I said there it is!! look! it's the backturn!! oooh! Which causes sister to lose it. Lots of kino and disgusting amounts of porno dancing ensue. But you know the deal with the social circle, I leave it at that :) Good night.

However, I understand a little more about my inner game issues with spending so much $. It also has to do with tipping, which is fine- but as the night goes on I seem to tip more just because I don't want to carry the fucking quarters around, or I forget the girls are being nice for the sole purpose of getting tips. Even though we do have some level of beginning comfort because they see me at least once a week, and ask questions about me (name, etc).

My favorite bartender, turns out she's going for her masters. I tell her how it's not very often that you see a beautiful woman who is so intelligent and smart. I've known her for a little while, so we definitely moved into more of a comfort frame last night, talking about her personal life. And at which point she bought us some drinks. I loved her before, but now she is even more kickass... masters, hell yes!

This is definitely a one of a kind summer, and I'm totally loving it, and of course never want it to end- but it will. The people that I see, namely the foreign exchange students, and there are many, they will all be gone after this summer and I will never see them again. I'm going to miss the girls, most of them are very very beautiful, and their smiles always steal my heart. They've helped me be able to talk with beautiful women, just to talk to them, no resume bullshit, just good conversation.

I posted at the beginning of this year (elsewhere) that this was going to be a great year, and it has far exceeded my expectations and dreams so far.

That's all for now,
B

Inner Game: Why I Drink So Much

I've recently spent a lot of time telling myself to stop drinking so much when I go out. It's fucking expensive for one thing, and it's fun. But perhaps I need to find a new way to have fun when I'm out right? So instead of telling myself to stop drinking, let's first examine why I do drink.

1. I don't know lyrics to the songs, and I like screaming along. When I'm drunk, I don't mind so much that I'm rambling incoherent shit very loudly. All of the venues I go to are way too loud to do anything else by default. Don't be too concerned however, isolation is easy later on. So dude, print out some lyrics and learn some of the songs you KNOW you hear a lot and enjoy listening to the most, then build from there.

2. Some of these drinks are damn yummy :):) And when you spend 5+ hours somewhere, just one will never do! But damn... maybe time to switch up to coke for real. Clinking a coke with your drunken neighbor is not nearly as much fun though. From budget perspective, 1.75$ bud selects are cheap. Stick with those when you can!

3. I notice I am not as free and fluid in my version of "dancing" without drinking. However now that I notice what I do when I am drunk, I can slowly teach myself to do that less drunk/sober and push my comfort level there. Perhaps some dancing lessons will help, but nothing too formal. Just like.. Club Dancing 101!

I think that covers it. Also, painfully so, don't go OUT so much? I spent all of $20 last week, normally it's $100 a night.. and I can't afford that any longer.

Reframe: You could have any girl here!

"You are that any-girl!"

Yes, it was a good reply when I said it. It was perfect, she loves me more than ever and we've been apart physically for 3 weeks now.

Listening to the pickup podcast and just finished the interview just before the one with Savoy, where they discuss that you need to have a clear goal in mind about what you want in a woman. Be very selective, not needy, etc.

This inspired me to reframe this thought, it just popped up in my head and I think it's absolutely perfect.

"Yes, I can have any girl. But you are the one I have been looking for!"

Money.

Pickuppodcast / Retrospect

So I've decided to actively listen to the guys at pickuppodcast.com. The other night I downloaded all 27 or so episodes and have been listening to them, pretty much when I feel like it. I still need hardcore music time, but given the fact I am driving a minimum of 160 miles every day, I'm not really hurting my chances to get through these. I really like these guys because they are not part of any commercial entity, and are aligned with what they call natural game- which is what I've been trying to develop on my own even with trying to totally immerse myself in The Mystery Method now Venusian Arts, Style's Annihilation Method, etc.

What really got me going was DeAngelo's On Being A Man DVD set that my friend loaned to me. Apparently that's something you do when you get sick of someone being a whiney bitch from a divorce. It seems to me that most of the guys in the community are all here because some long term relationship (8 years in my case, at least 5 in many others) soured and the guy was so pussy whipped from losing attraction and just being a supplicating little fucker. I know that's what happened to a few of us.

I would love to give this DVD set to anyone who I see not handling a breakup very well, and just sort of let them go from there. It has enough information related to the community hidden in there to get anyone who is motivated to change their life, really, to let the flood gates open. I hate to see guys suffer, but I'm keeping the community to myself over here, and just sharing bits of hard fact info.

One of the items mentioned on pickup podcast, people asked if they remember their first cold approach. I remember my first few, a cute blond in seaford who worked the bar at skipjacks. A few girls at the greene turtle in salisbury. Thinking back, I can recall shit body language and everything. I was the dog with his tail between his legs, trying to find a woman to live with me and take the place of my ex. Running them through the interview process, when all they wanted to do was fucking have fun. All I wanted was some girl to think I was leet and cling to me. That wasn't doing it.

Now tonight, I'm going to watch movies with one of my girlfriends and have a good time. We partied so hard last night it was ridiculous, I absolutely love the time we spend together. I only have two girls I feel that way about, the rest are all on the verge of being cut off :) Life is good, and I feel like, not a new man, but finally a man. Midlife crisis averted before age 30, score!

The Prepubescent Part of Puadom

The awkward moments, when you're finally starting to get features that say you are in fact a living breathing pua adult, yet are still retaining something that isn't quite right. I am still successfully closing, but am having a hard time getting certain information out of my girls about why they perceived me to be gay- which is not helping me eliminate it.

The only thing I can think of is that it's related to what I'm wearing. I've always had clothes that never fit right up until recently, and I think *maybe* I went too small on the shirts. But that's all I can think of, or maybe the fact that I am not pasty white anymore. As for the hair, it's always been short for the military so I'm sure that's not it.

Unfortunately I don't have the loot for CJ's eCoaching program or I'd bite, because I'm going to pick up one of my LTRs for the weekend and that's more important to me- why I fucking don't know- something with integrity and I've already told her I'm coming, and the friends I have who live up that way are expecting me. What this means is I have to find a way to make up $300 some other way this week to do it, because I WILL DO IT. GRR.

Anyways, so what do I do that makes me gay. One of my closes said "my friend just asked if you were gay", and I told her to let her friend know just how gay I really am. Good on my part, but WHAT GIVES.

Once this part is eliminated, I think I'll be in good shape.

I suck at freeze outs

Ok so she IM'd me this morning and I ignored it for awhile, which isn't too hard when you're working. But I eventually caved and asked her how her night was and how I felt that she seemed stressed. She apologized for being a bitch, and I told her that I understand women are incredibly emotional beings and that I love the roller coaster ride, which is partially true.
I remembered DeAngelo in On Being A Man drawing the straight arrow, which is man, and the woman all over the place up and down, and it was our job to be unmoved by her actions. She wants a strong man, not some noodle fuck that can't keep focus on his goals. Thanks D!

I realized it greatly with the last girl I was in love with, and now it's great to taste bittersweetness. So I pat myself on the back for succeeding at not being a whiney bitch myself and rising above the situation to where it fits my frame instead of the other way around. Score!

That being said, The Summer of Love challenge is almost upon us!!! Get ready for an awesome time with very absolutely awesome people! It begins the 15th of July so there's still time to sign up!

B

Freeze Out

HB Myspace has turned tonight, trying to push my limits, or at least trying to see if she's broken me into being her bitch. Unfortunately, I exist to master the game and ultimately to help other people succeed in social dynamics and being a real person. So if this is the part where I learn to lose "the perfect girl" then so be it. While I was in this for myself in the beginning, I feel part of something greater, and will sacrifice the one for the good of the many this time.

She's being short, it seems, because I won't drop everything on a dime to come get her. I told her it'd be at least a few weeks and all I got was "yeah, ok." I told myself earlier I was going to do a wonderful fidelio freezeout, yet when I did, she started to warm up again before I txt her back- at which point she got cold.

So, at this point I am daring myself to not txt her until tomorrow evening. Perhaps that is too long? I don't know, but now is the time to learn- and if something like this can tear her love from me away, then it was never really there, and it's a good thing that I stopped this before I took myself through another journey in life involving another person's soul. So, until I get off work tomorrow, I am cut off from her, that's all there is to that. She did say she was quitting her job tomorrow, but that I do not understand because I am not coming to get her tomorrow, and she does need money. *shrug*

I want to txt her lines from some music I know we're both into, but that's totally gay ass AFC and I'm glad I recognized it before it was too late. I have to grab my new balls here and be a man.

The only downside I forsee, is that she has me on AIM and will probably msg me. I can probably ignore it, or downplay it.

Anyhow, tonight was good. Went to karaoke and had a good time for a few minutes with T, some crazy ass duets going on with Unchain My Heart. Definitely beer required ;)

I'm out for tonight, big day of ... umm ... something, tomorrow.

Nite.
B

HB Myspace and General Update

Last week's gaming has turned into moving her down here to be with me forever, however long that is. She is going to be my best friend, and LTR, and hopefully mltr but we shall see.

One thing I've started doing is actually consciously paying attention to people's communication systems. I don't catch it all the time, but I am definitely noticing it now. I've been reading Persuasion Engineering, which has been a big help, and definitely a good book to read along side of Monsters and Magical Sticks: Why hypnosis does not exist (loose representation of the title, not looking it up:)) I think it is helping people open up to me. In my online talks with people, I often find myself realizing half-way through my reply that I'm not using their system, and I go back and correct for this. It is my job as a professional communicator to do so. For those of you who need a quick rundown, the systems are audio, visual, and kinesthetic. I hear what you're saying, do you see what I mean? Doesn't that feel better to you now?

My focus is still the same, but comes secondary to total involvement with The Warrior King Society. Had I not been aware of CJ before this site, I would probably not have signed up just because it looks like some sort of scheme. I will be posting the results I have gotten from being a member here from time to time. As of now, I am still collecting things to make my diet better, and am taking better care of myself. I also don't spend as much time at the gym any longer because he has introduced us to superslow training, which I will be following. I don't care who at the gym thinks I'm not spending any time there at all. They'll see...

I did drink 2 sodas today, of which I am ashamed. I really wish we'd get a water company here at work, the city stuff reaks of chlorine. I'll probably start bringing cases of Spring or Deer Park. As for food, I still need to go grocery shopping and put stuff in the fridge here . I'll post what I've come up with as soon as I start. Sadly, waiting on payday to go to the store and go nuts.

I'm also redoing my budget, but ended up spending all day playing some game on the internet that is so addicting I refuse to post it here.

Friday Night

Last night was Friday, and at least 20 people I knew where there. The energy was super high, successfully opened HB10 on the dance floor by just asking her name, and then introducing her to everyone. I don't think I drank too many shots, but I did mess up and have a beer at the end, and I think that threw me over the edge. I let myself out and fell asleep outside for awhile, then had one of those epiphanies that said "go over there out of sight behind the bushes real quick, i have something to show you." yeah, ew. i still say it was a really good night. For some reason, I let friend's birthdays be my excuse to drink too much, even though I'm trying to slow way down (stopping would be good) for my diet reasons.

Now I have to try and get a ride to my car lol.

Sadness, she went back home today.

A day early too! If I didn't spend the night trying to watch after her sister with her brother after the club, I wouldn't have called out of work today. Because I did, I was able to spend the entire night/day with her and it was very, very good. She left at 4pm, which is about the time I would have left work, and I would have missed her. Soulmate or not, we're very close- freaky close, and I'm glad the day worked in our favor.

This has been the most beautiful week ever. There are very personal connections that have happened with this woman, and our new relationship is nothing short of magnificent. She went back home yesterday, but we're talking about her moving down here to start her life over (that's what her mom suggested to her). Right now, I want nothing more than for her to be here with me. But until then, I'll keep working on the skillset.

For as much conversation as you can really do texting- this girl and I really had a good qualification time (i still suck at following the framework exactly ;))

But we've completed the 9 levels, and life is awesome!

LR: opened on myspace

okay okay, no lr tonight :) i think i have some fucked up game though, because i got an i love you tonight. i absolutely love i love yous, because holy shit man- from a woman that's one hell of a connection. we only spent maybe, MAYBE, 20 minutes doing actual by the book comfort, but apparently that + spending the night together did it. that and her friend had a shit night, and i got her in w/o cover + through a door she wasn't supposed to come in while a bunch of staff was right in front of us (perks to being an uber-regular i suppose, even though i dont expect to get shit for favors). and thank you babe for buying drinks tonight, that was sweet*100!

but maybe that's all im after, a genuine i love you. because to me, S3 seems a bit much, not that i hate sex or anything, i just feel cheap if i fuck a girl and that's the end of it. i'd rather be stuck in comfort with many of the girls and call it a day. i dunno, maybe it's a weak point of mine?

anyhow, 2 hours before i have to wake up. kinda glad i spent most of the 4th sleeping, i knew this part was coming. tomorrow, we're suppose to play some golf/shuffle board.

im so so SO SO SO glad i moved to a tourist town again. not honolulu, but it will suffice.....for now.

<3

B

ps. immortalizing this quote for the night, because this isnt the first time i've heard it- but the first time i am internalizing it as part of who i am

her: "you could have any girl"
me: "and you, are that any-girl"

opened on myspace, day2

ended up doing some phone/text game at the club. i caught the eye of one brilliantly beautiful girl as i was doing my thing, turns out it was myspace girl's sister. she immediately became my target, and i spent most of the beginning of the evening with myspace girl and her bro winning them over (you know the deal).

...couple hours pass...

oh yeah edit here, i had to protect her from some creepy guy, well her and her sister. that's one thing i can say about the dance club. it's super loud as shit, but you can actually demonstrate protecting women by helping with the creepy guys- and being a leader of men if you have a lot of friends that come up to you and high five or whatever, bonus points for hot girls from the social circle that do that also. this is not the first time i've done this now :)

k close: turned her around and backed her up against the wall in a more not-in-public-view place. done deal. plus the tension was built really high while dancing.

followed by # close, which went like this:
me: if i text her, you'll get the message right?
her: wouldnt it be better if i just gave you my number?
me: yeah you're right, what is it?
her: xxx-xxx-xxxx :)

i dont count much of this time towards the 7 hours in TMM, because i now believe that time is required by me talking and dhv, etc, not just spending time together. i think maybe i've cleared 2 hours, tops. i intend to clear the rest tomorrow. can DEFINITELY time constraint the day2 with her

brother became the amog, not mad. but i did make the situation awkward, won't handle it the same way again ;) but it's all good.

happy 4th everyone. tomorrow, there shall be fireworks!

opened on myspace

a couple weeks ago, i was opened by a woman on myspace who is travelling to my city for vacation. she wanted to know about the highlights, things she might want to do with her friends while they are here. i replied with a list for every night of the week, and i didn't intend it to be a very long reply, but when i was done- man it was huge!

she responded back basically omfg that's awesome, thanks! we had a couple other things and i let it die. the day before she left, she sent me an email with her phone number in it saying "hey text me when you're out, maybe we can meet up". 2 days later i sent her a txt saying who i was and that if she didnt catch me, i hope she has an awesome week here. that way she has my number and knows who i am the next time i text.

a couple more days pass.

last night i'm out with my friends watching one of THE most kickass bands ever and i sent her a text to come out (I know it's her 2nd night out), and she's like "who is this?" i replied with my name again from myspace. for the next 2 hours we text back and forth (not like every 2 seconds, but every like 20 minutes or so), and basically we're meeting up tonight after dinner.

i read something great today on one of the pua's blogs about time constrainting the day2, and that's basically what i've done by limiting this to seeing her at the club tonight, which is going to be busy as shit and i'll easily dismiss her for meeting up with my friends. after all, that's the reason i'm there anyway is to be with them and have a good time.. and this girl is totally in my world now.

let me tell you, i love women that are around 5" tall and appears to be bulimic/anorexic ;) im not sold on blond vs. brunette yet, but she has a rockin tight body and at least C which might be too big for me (wtf? i know..) and a nice backside. i'm still deciding who my perfect woman is- and this will allow me to be less stressed around HB10s that dont fit the bill. my god last night i talked to the most ditzy hot bartender girl ever, but that's another story- and nobody ever fills my shot glass that high ;) she rocks!!!! one day i'll get her name.

anyhow, so tonight is a time constrainted day2 with very very very easy possibility of time bridging for tomorrow since i have off and she's on vacation. again, god bless the holidays. (time constraint day 2 post by captain jack)

this is one of those periods of time where i feel a leap in game, as described on another journal (my memory is shit right now). life is good- thank you community!

thank you badboy

the video you posted the other day was very insightful to me.

your demo shows meeting a new woman on the street, starting from the initial approach. however what i took from the video was the way you two interacted at your coffee break. this past weekend i was out with one of my girls that i already met and have had several "dates" with, but her and i moved- from my perspective- really slowly. i still have approach anxiety, but slowly i am realizing that i am able to come up with good openers in all settings, and am starting to build confidence there. i believe this relationship has developed slowly because normally she is with her best friend and i have no wing, so they talk to each other super hyper all the time, and i just dont have enough material stacked to be able to keep them going for very long. so i just enjoy their banter, and it's absolutely amazing.

back to this weekend.

we sat down to watch the sunset together and were sitting close to each other and cuddly/cute, and afterwards we kept talking. using what i observed in the video, i moved over to lean against a tree (away from) while sitting on the bar stool and she did keep leaning in to talk. and i made sure to use my hands more than i normally do, and i had a great time. the best part is SP was being developed for myself with the other regulars, who already see me there with women all the time.

this community, no matter which flavor, absolutely rocks- thank you for your mentorship!


Edit: here is a link to the youtube video
and the url which i found at the attraction chronicles.

the plan

Focus 100% on reading, in it's entirety, The Art of Seduction by Robert Greene. The preface already mentions being of warrior mentality, where each person in the world is hiding behind their walls, and it is our job to break them down and get to them by first going after the mind, and giving people the best most pleasurable experiences of their lives. Seduction, by the latin root means to lead astray, and people want to be lead astray all the time. The book promises to describe the different types of "victims" and the roles they need filled in their lives. Once we know who we are, and can figure out the other person, we will know which role to assume to begin work.

If anyone wants to read with me and discuss the book, now's a great time to start- I'm getting to chapter 1 today.

need a plan

Last night, a very good looking woman told me that I look like I should be with the hottest women in the world. Now if only I could get my inner game sorted out, I'd be in good shape. I get mad AA if the girl isnt an UG or if she is someone I have an immediate physical interest in.

I need a plan. Back in the day, I felt better because everything was new, I would read something and follow it. Now, I feel inundated with information, resources, influences, and plus I've taken on so much in terms of learning other things that I've locked up. I resort to hanging out with friends and I'll be damned if I really meet anyone new on my own.

Knowing that everything is cyclical, I feel some relief. I know another leap is coming, I just need to focus on something and work on it. I'd say back to step one, and working on opening again. Open a zillion sets, fuck it. But then what do I say after, and that's my greatest sticking point. When I'm lucky, the other party secretly takes me past it, as I'm sure has happened in my cases.
To be an artist requires lots of practice. Right now I'm sitting with a coloring book scribbling all over the place.

Framing / MLTR / Continuously Fucking up

Obviously I'm still not very good at this "game." I've taken this one girl into S3, but foolishly have not told her about my belief in open relationships. Why? Because I get scared. Why? Because I'm still building this belief in myself, and because new things take me awhile to just go "DUH, THAT'S HOW IT IS STUPID." Ie: I used to have issues with the whole "wait up while i dig a fucking condom out", now it's just like playing some intermission music for a sec and getting back to business.

Now, I'm in a position with another girl that we're into Comfort and rapport building. I refuse to escalate any further and before she starts to wonder if it's her, I have to stop being a pussy and get into conversation about relationships.. a la deep rapport. Also I guess part of Qualifying, where does that fit again? Argh.. anyway. So this other girl knows about her, and knows what I'm doing- and she's okay with it because although we haven't discussed it, we both share the same frame of what we are together.

So what's the big deal?

Well it's the other girls bday and I'm not going to talk about that shit on her special day. I'm also not going go escalate tonight. But what I do plan on doing is talking to her BEST FRIEND (oh holy shit you have no idea how close these guys are) about why she keeps going back to her douche bag abusive boyfriend, or at least dates someone else at the same time who does appreciate her, and even discredit Abusive Boy Friend (ABF) by asking if he can only handle exclusive relationships.

This had better turn the Idea Lightbulb on for her, where she gets where I'm going.

You see, I love women. They each have their own lives, their own mannerisms, and I adore them all. The super sensitive sweet girl who you'd hate to hurt, who probably wants traditional exclusive dating, and the good times girl who giggles just right, is super flirty, and knows how to have a good time without having to have sex. Well, that's who I'm dealing with right now. I don't want to hurt this girl at all. I will even put fun girl on hold to see how I like the super sweet girl, and I know she'll be okay with it- but I don't know if I really am because it shows weak frame to me. Who am I? What do I want? Right?

The last girl I didn't qualify right is super psycho and is causing problems for us all, even has her little bro giving me a hard time. But I'm keeping it right when talking to him, because it is what it is. He's used to that exclusive shit, and I'm going to break open his world with material from the community. He'll either think I'm scum, or the man, I don't care which as long as he really keeps to himself. I've already closed off his thread, so we'll see what happens.

I had to post this before tonight, because tonight is *her* birthday. And I want to post how I'm feeling now before we all go out, get trashed, and have another Best Night Ever.

No, I wasn't too careful about what I got her for her bday either. But it definitely screams I'm interested. My friends just get shit cards, maybe even handwritten, and a couple bucks to offset their impending bar tab ;) (Exceptions of course, do exist.)

Okay so done, I need to find something to do for another hour or so. Maybe resting and listening to some nice music.

Crap LR

Last night was good (read into that however you wish, I'm not posting details). I had one guy try to steal my girl, but she wouldn't go. And I let her go a few times, but she always came back around the corner before we finally went back to our main spot at the club.

..Fast Forward..

The first time I hit S3, I do pretty much the same thing. This time I had no LMR because I took longer to escalate in S3, and limited myself and did a lot more push earlier on at the venues. I think I was showing signs of LMR myself, which might have helped.

I'm frigging beat, and I have to find a way to get a shower before I get to my other girl's house tonight ;)

I really need to fix my shitty approaching, but based on what this girl told me about her ex, I'm in pretty fucking good shape. But I'm still into long term shit, no ONS. Or am I.. fuck.

Inner Game

One thing I know I did with my last girl was drop everything that I had in order to spend time with her.

Most of it was stuff that I had picked up from following the Stylelife Challenge, things that until Neil was like "Hey, do this! Why wouldn't you? Have you tried it yet? What were your results?" Things I have personal hangups about still (guys tanning), but the result is I can actually go to the beach for hours now and not burn like a fucking lobster. That and I finally got off my ass and joined a gym. I was pushing a little too much weight trying to get results faster and ended up hurting my growth rate too. That and moving has killed my gym time for about 2 weeks, but I've decided to force myself to go after work, especially since it's on the way home.

I know it's going okay because I get compliments, not that I'm great looking but definitely they can tell I'm going to the gym. The biggest thing that made me happier with myself was a 9.3 rating on hot or not from some picture we happened to take last year when I just started actually working toward a goal.

One of the main things that has changed is that the places I go, I don't worry about paying cover anymore because most of the time they take my local ID instead of cover, know me and just let me in, or I can get myself and a guest in with no cover. So no pressure to show up before 10 or even later, giving me more me time to read some of the books that I've been meaning to.

The next big ticket item is finding a job closer to home and killing a 3 hour drive.

Seeding

Heh I just realized I've been doing this too, very amateurish because I don't have a lot going on right now (total lie, but I'm still sorting through what I spend my time on). I guess they're just not really great things to seed from my point of view, so I have to fix that asap!

Qualification

Slowly, as I spend more time socializing, I am able to actually feel a certain way based on which level of the game I am experiencing. I spent most of my life introverted and have been working to change that for the better part of 6 months now. It is now that I am able to identify a feeling, and understand where I'm at. Where one day I would have said comfort, I now know strongly that we are still big into attraction and qualification. Why? Because I'm finally at a point where I have to decide who I want to spend my time with on more than just a friendship level. So yes, I am going to qualify the shit out of this girl because if she's not going to do, I've got to move on.

I can look back retrospectively and see that I was big into qualification with the last girl, however I let my game fall apart and became totally hers, ditching some of my other girls to spend time with her. Needless to say I'm starting over with my mltr attempts.

Yes I still suck at Approaching, but that's because I totally disqualify the girl before hand. My reasoning goes: oh she's just here for the weekend, the week, whatever. For some reason I'm still looking for more long term social circle people, but when that changes I imagine I'll be fine with someone who isn't going to last. After all, most of the girls I've taken beyond S3 haven't lasted more than a few weeks due to either my decision, or there's, and only one has ended sour due to her own inner game issues. Plus now I'm mid move so the pad is definitely not up to my standards.. ugh. Hasn't really stopped me, but I like it when things are .. just right.

But I'm excited because for the first time, I know I'm in qual, I feel it, I know.